Talk:Matt/@comment-4958436-20120803063756/@comment-5329564-20120803162200

He could simply be referring to the trauma of what happened and how it ruined his life or he could have been 'dead' in the sense that he wasn't breathing for a little bit before Coach Lahey did CPR. He did talk about expecting to see "the white light" so it's possible that Matt thinks he really did die for a moment. Either way, he likely had some form of PTSD, and that's a hell of a thing to live with, especially for a kid.